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Stop-and-frisks are brutal assertions of police dominance on African American men, through sexual harassment, torture and even terrorism

The officer must feel with sensitive fingers every portion of the prisoners body. A thorough search must be made of the prisoners arms and armpits, waistline and back, the groin and areas about the testicles, and entire surface of the legs down to the feet.

Police Manual, 1954

Heres what happens when you are stopped and frisked. You are walking to work on a Monday morning. The cop car stops suddenly, two men with guns jump out, and they order you to face the building and put your hands up. They put their hands roughly all over your body, one squeezes something in your pocket and asks you, Whats that? You take out your asthma inhaler and show it to him. They pat you down one more time and then they just leave. They dont apologize. Your neighbors are walking by, some looking at you sympathetically and others like they are wondering what crime you committed.

You feel humiliated.

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Or you are going to visit your mom in the projects. The lock on the door to the lobby is always busted, and the buzzer to her apartment is broken too. You just hope the elevator is working because you dont feel like walking up eight flights of stairs. Again.

You open the door and enter the lobby. Four cops are waiting. You recognize a couple of them from your previous visits to the neighborhood. One officer asks where you are going. To visit my mom, you say. Put your hands against the wall, another cop says. Why? Im just going to visit my mom. Trespass is the answer. You tell them, Im not trespassing. They surround you.

Now its a situation. You put your hands on the wall. They kick your feet to spread your legs wider. They make you take off your cap, they pat you up and down, they touch your private parts. Other people entering the building look away partly to preserve your dignity and partly because they hope that if they pretend not to notice the cops, the cops will pretend not to notice them.

Nobody coming inside the building uses a key it would be ridiculous because the lock is broken. The cops write you up a citation for trespass. One of the officers you have seen before pulls you aside and says when you go to court just bring proof of your mothers address and the judge will dismiss the case. Then they let you go. You hate them with every fiber of your being.

What does it mean when police go around touching people who are, in the eyes of the law, innocent? Stop-and-frisks are brutal assertions of police dominance of the streets, communicating to African American men through three ways of feeling a black man sexual harassment, torture and even terrorism that they are objects of disdain by the state.

Los Angeles police department gang unit officers stop and frisk a gang member. Photograph: Robert Nickelsberg/Getty Images

The police had been conducting stop-and-frisks for decades before the supreme court got around to approving them in a case called Terry v Ohio. The practice began in the 1930s. When cops saw African Americans doing things they thought were suspicious it could be driving an expensive car, socializing with white people or just hanging out on the corner police would routinely make them show identification, search them and question them about where they worked and what they were doing.

Most stops did not lead to arrests, but that has never really been the purpose of stop-and-frisk. Rather, the benefit that police gained was a tool for psychological warfare, according to Orlando W Wilson, head of the Chicago police department from 1960-67 and one of the pioneers of modern policing. Stop-and-frisk is an effective law enforcement strategy, Wilson thought, because it creates the impression that the police are omnipresent.

Every supreme court case is a creature of its times. In 1968, the year Terry v Ohiowas decided, the streets were wild. This was a new and troubling development, because for much of the early part of the century, at least since the Depression, crime had been relatively low. But between 1960 and 1970, the crime rate increased by 135%.

For violent crimes such as homicide and robbery, African American men were disproportionately the perpetrators and disproportionately the victims. There was a sense that the ghetto was out of control, and that the main culprits were black males. The police responded aggressively. James Baldwin, writing in 1962, observed:

The only way to police a ghetto is to be oppressive … The badge, the gun in the holster, and the swinging club make vivid what will happen should rebellion become overt … He moves through Harlem, therefore, like an occupying soldier in a bitterly hostile country, which is precisely what, and where he is, and is the reason he walks in twos and threes.

Of course, African Americans are not the only group that experiences group-based suspicion. Law enforcement agents have also relied on the Terrydoctrine to profile Muslims and Arabs, particularly at airports. Latinos are the subject of special attention by Border Patrol agents. However, stop-and-frisk by local police officers disproportionately burdens African American men. Its another example of the chokehold the construction of every black man as a threat, and the resulting legal and social apparatus to put him down at work.

For African American men, stop-and-frisk is a form of government. It is the most visceral manifestation of the state in their lives. Most black men have never been convicted of a crime. About half of black men get arrested at some point during their lives. But virtually every African American man gets stopped-and-frisked. Of my black male friends and colleagues between the ages of 20 and 70, I dont know one who hasnt been.

Stop-and-frisk is a central source of inequality, discrimination and police abuse. It is a threat to democratic values. Yet stop-and-frisk has a strange prestige. It is the nations leading crime control policy despite scant evidence that it actually works to make communities safer.

In an eight-block area of Brooklyn, New York, in a neighborhood called Brownsville, the police conducted almost 52,000 stop-and-frisks over a period of about four years, from 2006 to 2010. This was an average of one each year for every resident of this community.

But the stops were not distributed randomly. Virtually all the people stopped were young African American and Latino males. Men and boys aged 15-34 made up almost 70% of the stops. A young male citizen of Brownsville got seized and searched about five times a year.

Less than 1% of these police detentions resulted in arrests. In other words, thousands of men and boys in this neighborhood were grabbed by armed agents of the state and then subjected to a careful exploration of the outer surfaces of a persons clothing all over his or her body, even though 99% of the time these people had committed no crime.

People who have been stopped-and-frisked use words such as violated, invaded and chumped to describe how it made them feel. It also may affect their actions: African American and Latino men, in particular, tell stories about the measures they take to avoid being stopped-and-frisked; these steps may range from decisions about clothing and hair style to the kinds of cars they drive or the neighborhoods in which they choose to live.

Abuse of African American men has often had a sexual component. Black male victims of lynching were frequently castrated, and then their penises were stuffed in their mouths. A New York police officer inserted a broom handle into the anus of Abner Louima. In 1970, Philadelphia cops raided three offices of the Black Panther Party, ordered the men to line up against a wall and strip, and then took photos of them. Police sometimes obtain confessions by warning male suspects if they dont cooperate with the cops, they will be raped in prison.

Stop-and-frisk is also gendered, and sexual. Frisks are frisky. The police cop a feel. To assume the position is to make oneself submissive one turns and offers his backside to another person. Often other cops participate, either as voyeurs or by doing another guy at the same time.

In African American neighborhoods, it is not uncommon to see a row of young men facing a wall, each waiting his turn to be patted down by one officer, or a group pat-down involving several officers and several young men. The journalist Richard Goldstein, writing about the assault of Abner Louima, observed:

Several false assumptions shape our obliviousness to the erotic element in police brutality: that men are rarely the victims of sexual assault, that straight men have no homosexual feelings, and that sexuality is limited to what we do in bed. The first perception allows police to force young black men to drop their pants a common practice during street frisk without risking charges of sexual harassment (imagine what would happen if black women were subject to this treatment); the second notion prevents us from imagining that cops who specialize in such tactics might find them exciting; and the third blinds us to the connection between sadism and racism.

Police frisk an African American man as other suspects lean against wall in Detroit, 1967. Photograph: American Stock Archive/Getty Images

The legal scholar Bernard Harcourt has also observed a sexual element in stop-and-frisk. He describes an encounter, recorded in the appendix of a study of police searches by the scholars Jon Gould and Stephen Mastrofski, between a white police officer and an African American male, both in their late twenties.

The black man, who had been riding a bike, was stopped-and-frisked by the police, who found no contraband. The cop then said to the black man: I bet you are hiding [drugs] under your balls. If you have drugs under your balls, I am going to fuck your balls up. As Harcourt relates, quoting from the study by Gould and Mastrofski, The police officer then tells the young black suspect to get behind the police car, and pull his pants down to his ankles. The white police officer puts on some rubber gloves. He then begins feeling around the black suspects testicles.

The officer still found no contraband. He told the black man: I bet you are holding them in the crack of your ass. You better not have them up your ass. Harcourt writes: The black man, at this point very compliant, bent over, and spread his cheeks. The white cop, still with his rubber gloves, then put his hand up [the black mans] rectum.

The police still found no evidence of a crime. They told the black man he could leave; he said thank you and rode off on his bike. Harcourt poses a series of questions, including: What must have been going through the officers mind when he started putting on those rubber gloves? … Did he feel embarrassed about being white and putting his hands up a black mans rectum? Or did that excite him? Do you think he experienced some pleasure at the idea of penetrating a black man?

It is difficult for some to understand sexuality between men when one or both men are perceived to be heterosexual. If I were describing a practice of police officers choosing, at will, which women they want to touch (and especially men of color choosing white women), the sexual element would seem obvious. Heteronormativity obscures what is going on between the police and black men.

Sometimes the police have literally tortured African American men. I grew up in an all-black neighborhood in Chicago. One day, when I was about 13, I rode my bike to the public library, which was in the white neighborhood a few miles away. When I got close to the library, a cop car pulled up next to me and an officer rolled down his window and asked if the bike I was riding belonged to me. Yes, I replied. Does that car belong to you? And I sped off.

When I got home I told my mother what I had done. She spanked me good. Didnt I know what happened to black boys who talked to the police like that? I was lucky to be alive. It was one of those whoopings when the parent cries as much as the child.

Former Chicago police Lt Jon Burge, who was was convicted of obstruction of justice. Photograph: Charles Rex Arbogast/AP

It turns out that my mother was right about the police. During this time, Chicago police commander Jon Burge was overseeing the torture of 118 black men. He and his midnight crew of cops coerced confessions from suspects by methods that included sticking electrical devices up their rectums, pouring soda in their noses and burning them with curling irons.

Burges method of choice was the black box. This was an electrical device that would be attached to people who were shackled to tables or chairs. One wire from the box would be placed on their hands, and another on their ankles. An officer would then place a plastic bag over the suspects head and crank up the electricity.

Anthony Holmes, one of Burges victims, told prosecutors: When he hit me with the voltage, thats when I started gritting, crying, hollering … It [felt] like a thousand needles going through my body. And then after that, it just [felt] like, you know it [felt] like something just burning me from the inside, and, um, I shook, I gritted, I hollered, then I passed out.

Chicago has now spent more than $100m investigating Burges midnight crew and compensating its victims. Some of the people tortured into confessing have been freed, while others are still in prison. In 2011, Burge himself was convicted of obstruction of justice and perjury and did four years in federal prison.

He still receives his pension from the Chicago police department.

Stop-and-frisk is not supposed to be punishment, but it feels that way to its victims. After the police have detained you, felt all over your body, and then let you go, you are supposed to go about your business as if nothing of consequence has happened.

Most citizens dont take it personally when they are detained by a traffic light. Proponents of stop-and-frisk seem to feel that the Terryrule requiring you to submit, often spread eagle, and almost always in public, while the police physically investigate you to see if they can arrest you for a crime is somehow regulatory in the same sense as a traffic light. Except that the red light does not prefer to stop black men; the red light does not stop people as part of a performance that demonstrates its dominance and control; the red light engages in no kinky sexual violation while youre waiting for it to turn green; and the red light derives no pleasure from the public spectacle of submission to its order. And the police do.

Stop-and-frisks signal that the police control the streets, and they signal this in a way that is, as Foucault described torture, public, spectacular, corporal and punitive. When one sees a row of black men spread against a wall, one is witnessing what Foucault called the very ceremonial of justice being expressed in all its force.

Stop-and-frisk punishes black men, its most consistent repeat targets. It punishes them for being black and male. In 99 Problems, Jay-Z is asked by the officer who has stopped him:

Son, do you know what Im stopping you for?

Jay-Z replies:

Because Im young and Im black and my hats real low.

The legal scholar Bennett Capers writes: Stops are a dressing down, a public shaming, the very stigmatic harm that the [supreme] court has often, but not often enough, found troubling.

During the 2013 Floyd trial in New York City, in which the NYPDs stop-and-frisk policy was being challenged, a former police captain testified that Ray Kelly, then the citys police commissioner, stated that stop-and-frisk focused on African American and Latino men because Kelly wanted to instill fear in them, every time they leave their home they could be stopped by the police.

An African American mother, writing on a blog about parenting, said this about her sons experience growing up in New York City: The saddest part of all of this is hed begun to become immune to being stopped. He, like too many other men of color in this city, had become desensitized to being treated criminally. They take it as par for the course; they shrug it off and most will laughingly share their war stories. But listen closely and you can hear anger co-mingled with humiliation and a weary, reluctant acceptance.

One African American resident of Brooklyn told the New York Times, residents fear the police because you can get stopped at any time. The philosopher David Luban describes the torturers work as inflicting pain one-on-one, deliberately, up close and personal, in order to break the spirit of the victim in other words, to tyrannize and dominate the victim.

The stories of many black men who are subject to seize-and-search are the stories of men who have had their spirits broken. They are afraid of the police. Stop-and-frisk demonstrates who is in charge, and the consequences of dissent. It gives the police the kind of authority over innocent people that they should not have in a democracy.

The country that African American men live in is not free.

Copyright 2017 by Paul Butler. This excerpt originally appeared in Chokehold: Policing Black Men by Paul Butler, published by The New Press. Reprinted here with permission.

Illustration by Joe Magee


It could be a bane or a boon. There are ethical issues like the effect on jobs and tax that we need to talk about

If theres one thing 2016 taught us its that political predictions are a mugs game. Predictions about technology and society, however, are at least a little easier. One thing thats going to rub up against our noses during 2017 is the imminence of the driverless car revolution, which is going to be a big one.

Around our house there is a new noise. Its my voice, in a tone of authoritarian command, saying: Alexa, stop! Or perhaps, Alexa, play the Beach Boys; or Alexa, whats the weather like tomorrow? Yes, like thousands of others, I got the new Amazon toy for Christmas a small cylinder that can answer many questions with enormous speed and proficiency, play music, order taxis, dictate recipes and much else besides.

Yet Alexa, already transforming life in my household, is nothing compared to the changes that driverless cars are going to visit on us very soon. Not long ago this was science fiction, but in 2016 we saw them tested on the streets of Milton Keynes. Meanwhile, in San Francisco, a row between Uber and the state of California over licences saw driverless cars removed from the streets and the first fatal car crash in the US involving a car on autopilot.

Next year the UK government hopes we will see trials of driverless cars on British motorways. So its time for some serious thinking about whats coming down the fast lane in 2017.

Lets start with the positives. First, quite a lot of people who would be killed or maimed on the roads if we carry on as we are will be saved. It may seem counter-intuitive, but almost all studies on properly equipped driverless cars suggest they are safer than those driven by humans. There is an additional safety advantage for women, who worry about late-night taxi rides. A driverless car might seem a sinister invention to some people but it isnt going to rape you.

Driverless cars should also greatly improve the urban landscape. We have become used to the ugliness of almost every street being choked by parked vehicles, but there would be almost no point in most of us owning a car. The cost of a cab ride is mostly made up by paying the driver, and therefore local rides would be dramatically cheaper.

It will seem outlandishly extravagant to blow tens of thousands of pounds on buying a piece of equipment you can hire whenever you need it for far less. Petrolheads on a Jeremy Clarkson kick will still want to own their cars, but for most people this will be a big saving.

So our streets will be clearer. And, because these will be electric cars, cleaner too. There will have to be vast new infrastructure systems huge garages to store the cars so they can arrive quickly when ordered. I wonder whether local train services will survive. We may see a return to the Thatcherite proposal for railway lines to be turned into roads, this time for driverless cars.

As for buses, at the moment we have a largely undiscussed transport apartheid between car owners and bus users. But if driverless cars work then surely there will be driverless buses, which can be a lot smaller and more numerous than todays diesel-spewing vehicles. At the other end of the scale, car sharing and car pooling, already popular, will expand: the distinction between somebody using a driverless minibus and driverless, large shared car could become meaningless.

Put all this together and I can imagine car ownership, and car driving, being frowned on as much as opening a packet of fags at a family gathering is now.

But lets turn to the dark side of this. First, the effect on jobs. There are just under 300,000 HGV drivers licensed in the UK and about the same number of licensed taxi and cab drivers in England and Wales. But these figures are probably an underestimate of the actual numbers of professional drivers, given the black/grey economy and the local delivery drivers. Putting all this together, I wouldnt be surprised if there were around a million people across the UK dependent upon driving others, or goods, or takeaways for their living.

But the numbers are only the half of it. In an age of job insecurity, driving has become the default way that many people, particularly men, keep their heads above water. If you cant find anything else, sign up with a local cab firm and spend long hours on the streets.

So the effect of this version of job destruction will be harsh, and require redistribution. Who will be the huge gainers from the driverless car revolution? Presumably the biggest car companies, and those at the forefront of the technology Tesla, Mercedes, Honda and the taxi companies, like Uber. Both can expect to make gargantuan profits. How do you channel some of that money back into the economy to provide jobs for the former drivers?

Thats the old question about the taxation of multinationals. I dont see any chance of our society running out of things for human beings to do not with the care crisis, or the needs of the NHS, or the almost endless amounts of environmental work to be done. Its about funding, by effectively taxing the new profits.

There are also safety issues. This entire system depends upon the internet. A terrorist attack, or even a large solar flare, could knock everything out. The more interconnected we are, the more vulnerable we are.

This is such a huge issue I would expect it to be a major political question for the year ahead. As with most technological advances, driverless cars will be a wonderful future or a looming disaster, dependent on the political choices we make. That, at least, hasnt changed. Has it, Alexa?

Hero homeowner holds escaped Georgia inmates at gunpoint until arrests


A Tennessee homeowner held two escaped inmates wanted in the killing of two prison guards at gunpoint Thursday until authorities arrived and made the arrests.

Tennessee Highway Patrol spokesman Lt. Bill Miller said late Thursday that the homeowner caught Donnie Rowe and Ricky Dubose trying to steal his vehicle.

Miller says the escaped Georgia inmates had crashed a car while being chased by law enforcement and fled on foot into woods along Interstate 24 near the rural community of Christiana.

Miller says something alerted the homeowner that people were outside his home and he saw the men trying to steal his vehicle. The trooper says the homeowner held the two at gunpoint with a neighbor he called until the Rutherford County Sheriff’s Department could get there to arrest them.

Rowe and Dubose are accused of killing two guards on a prison transfer bus early Tuesday. Authorities had offered a $130,000 reward for information leading to their arrests.

Authorities say Rowe and Dubose overpowered and killed Sgt. Christopher Monica and Sgt. Curtis Billue early Tuesday on a bus that should have been secured as it carried 33 inmates between prisons southeast of Atlanta.

Authorities had offered a $130,000 reward for information leading to the arrest of the fugitives, whom Sills had called “dangerous beyond description.”

The search had involved law enforcement officers all over Georgia, as well as the FBI, the U.S. Marshals Service, and the U.S. Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, Firearms and Explosives.

Gov. Nathan Deal released a statement, Rest assured, justice will be served. My sincere thanks to our local, state and federal law enforcement officers who assisted in the manhunt. Because of their tireless efforts, the public is safe.”

The Associated Press contributed to this report

Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/us/2017/06/16/hero-homeowner-holds-escaped-georgia-inmates-at-gunpoint-until-arrests.html

Mom Gets Bad Feeling as 3 Strangers Stare At Her DaughterThen She Hears Say Bye to Mommy


It started as a conversation about “how cute her daughter is.” Seconds later, she saw what they were really up to…

In a viral Facebook post byAmanda Cropsey Florczykowski, oneconcerned mom is aimingto raise awareness about the dangers of sex trafficking that could be lurking in your own neighborhood. The near abduction that she experienced with her toddler in a local store exemplifies how these scams are often happening in the most unsuspecting places.

Her post reads:

My name is Amanda and I’m a Longview, Texas resident. I’m convinced that our two-year-old daughter was the victim of a potential sex-trafficking scam yesterday.

I got in the check-out line at a local store early afternoon. I took my daughter out of the cart and the couple ahead struck up the typical conversation about how “cute your daughter is” and then asked about her age, repeatedly. I initially was understanding of what I assumed was a cultural barrier, but I quickly became uncomfortable with the woman’s body language and close proximity to my cart/kids. I picked my daughter up only to have the woman ask if she could hold her. The woman was so close at this point that my toddler reached her arms around the woman before I could really respond. In an instant her proximity finally changed and she backed away. I grabbed back on to my daughter as the woman was saying, “Say bye to mommy”what an unusual comment to provoke a child to say. The woman resisted returning her when I physically pulled my daughter from her arms.

Know their conversation began immediately with me and this all took place over only a few moments. After this couple left, I was really shaken up but still noticed the man a few feet away in my peripheral vision, continuing to stand, by himself, with no groceries, in a closed check-out lane. He faced the opposite direction, but was looking over his shoulder at me; glaring would be an understatement. His eyes did not leave my every move and I confidently matched his stare to show I was aware of his presence. I loudly conversed with the cashier about their security staff and the odd couple that seemed predatory.

I’m thankful to Jesus that He alone protected us! I was able to get out and home safely with my family.

I’ve since researched sex-trafficking and some details were precisely my experience. I want to recount those specifics to create awareness in hopes that you can protect your own children.

Abductors often work in groups and position themselves throughout the store. Although it wouldn’t appear that these threeindividuals were shopping together, I am certain this man and couple were a team.
This couple were of East Indian descent and the man was white and covered in tattoosall were mid 30s. Beware no matter the color, appearance, age or sex.
The couple checked out with twoitems of little value. Something they could easily abandon.
The woman had alarming proximity to me at times and twice put her hand on my basket. She created one route for me to place my groceries, thus leaving my attention divided between my kids and my task. (I did not place anything on the belt until they left…FYI.)
I20 is a prominent sex-trafficking route; Longview included. In fact, the U.S. Department of Justice used the following cities to study sex-trafficking data. Notice the first three.
San Antonio, TX
Fort Worth, TX
Salt Lake City, UT
Buffalo, NY
Baton Rouge and New Orleans, LA
Independence, MO
Las Vegas, NV
Clearwater, FL
The Commonwealth of the Northern Mariana Islands (U.S. Territory)
Houston is a popular port where these children are sold overseas.
Abductors often follow you to your car and snatch the willing child they bonded with moments before; all while you put in groceries.
Abductors can follow you home.
The cashier remarked that she thought I knew these strangers. Their body language conveyed that to onlookers, which would make an exit convenient.
I’ve heard this is happening at Target, Walmart andKmart; often in the mornings/before lunch. Completely true of my experience, but it could happen anywhere.
Moms shopping alone with kids are targeted. Also true of my experience.
Although rumor says blonde, fair girls/teens are targets, I’ve yet to find that in my research & my daughter doesn’t fit that description.
Additionally, little girls AND boys of any age are targets.

The thought of what could have happened is sickening. I’m just like you; a mom, and I hope my experience helps you to be, not fearful, but cautious!

2 Timothy 1:7 “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”

My resources:

(LPD have been contacted with this report.)

To learn more about the dangers of sex trafficking, check out this video on the thousands ofwomen who are abductedat major sporting events every year.

Please SHAREthis with your friendsto raise awareness about thiscritical issuethat is happening right under our noses.Together, we canEND IT.

Read more: http://www.faithit.com/mom-amanda-cropsey-florczykowski-warns-sex-trafficking/

Rob& Chyna: the saddest testify on TV


The format of this painfully dull show is identical to other persons of the Kardashian empire: wearisome panoramas of people sitting in kitchens not eating cheese plates

Is there a less qualified reality depict sun than Rob Kardashian? If you lined up 10 parties from the throwing register of A& Es Intervention and Rob Kardashian and had to choose one to base an ongoing tv series around, would you ever pick him unless people know his last name? Isnt this a tragedy? Shouldnt we all be more disturbed?

Sunday nights premiere of the brand-new E! sequence Rob& Chyna marks the yield of the black sheep Kardashian to the public eye. Hes invested years of their own lives unwilling to leave his room, which effected him to gain( his words) a clutch of heavines. He examines little comfy drawing eye linked with other human being than the little orphan daughter Newt from the movie Aliens. A Los Angeles Dodgers hat covers whats left of the poorest of the poor guys thin, unkempt whisker. His wardrobe contained in T-shirts , nondescript jeans and sneakers. In other terms, when I watch this astoundingly depressing platform, I watch myself and what I might become( minus the millions of dollars ).

The first few minutes of Rob& Chyna intend to prepare us sympathize with Rob and his pregnant fiancee Blac Chyna. As an aside, isnt it a bit ghoulish that Blac Chyna extends almost entirely by the name Chyna in the first episode now that the original Chyna the former WWE wrestler has died? Its like rummaging through people jewelry after a funeral.

Regardless of what you call her, Blac Chyna is the actual superstar of this demo, even if her identify is second on the pavilion. She came up from the world-famous deprive societies of Atlanta and became something of an entrepreneur, at least in the way that we characterize that message in 2016. She took the Kardashian template of monetizing tabloid infamy through a cult of personality social media ubiquity, branded makes, and now, the final piece of the question, an E! actuality franchise. Shes become a major supporting player in the ongoing Kardashian meta-narrative having a baby with the rapper Tyga, who then leaves her for Kylie Jenner, which leads to Chyna join coerces with Rob. Whether or not her relationship with Rob is genuine or a calculated effort to increase her paying potential is not for me to decide (* cough its bullshit cough *) but what is is whether or not this TV show is good. Its not.

Rob& Chyna: started with the wind. Photograph: E!

If your litmus test for depositing with a programme designed is answering the question does someone fart within the first 10 instants with a yes, then Rob& Chyna is for you. Spoiler alert, Chyna farts in the car. If “youd prefer” a bit of drama, then maybe flip over to another channel. Or throw your cable container or streaming design into the nearest open body of water and stray into the town square. Either one is fine with me.

The format of this dreadfully dull show is identical to the other outposts of the Kardashian empire: wearisome panoramas of beings driving luxury vehicles on featureless pikes, be standing kitchens not feeing cheese sheets, or folding clothes for a business expedition that may or may not ever happen. During these incidents, mush-mouthed pod people debate some ill-defined conflict. Someone needs to go to rehab for a vague difficulty. “Someones got” text person back about a situation that happened off camera. Someone looks disrespected. A party invite is lost in the mail. Watching these pictures is like speaking the most banal email thread at 3am. Plug sad-eyed agoraphobe Rob Kardashian into this format and you have a medicine for insomnia so potent, the Food and Drug Administration should govern it.

The ostensible story of this escapade is organized around Rob accusing Chyna of texting guys behind his back. He swears this to be the case because he discovers that Chyna has changed the passcode on her iPhone. He even insinuates that shes securing up with her ex, Tyga. All of this takes plaza with Rob spread out comfortably on a bunk. Chyna denies any misbehavior, then accuses Rob of contacting ladies behind her back. He apparently admits it, which I vaguely recollect before my eyelids glued slam for the night. It must be the case, because the very next scene is Chyna in another expensive automobile screaming at Rob to stop texting bitches.

These are the moments one watches world TV for hostility, incoherent call and curse. This is why I wish the Andy Cohen Bravo model for reality over the ponderous Ryan Seacrest/ Kris Jenner indulgence gabfests. Contrast Rob& Chyna with Bravos Below Deck, currently on its fourth season and with one spinoff under its region. Below Decks premise is simple: apply a bunch of attractive deckhands on a mega-yacht, ply them with alcohol, and be fostered to melt down every escapade. Would you instead watch that or a evidence starring beings extremely far-famed to attain proper clowns of themselves for your amusement? The rebuttal is, neither, Im a grownup who is too busy contributing ethic to the culture to devalue myself with such frivolities, but dont worry, I picked the show about yachties drunkenly fixing up too.

I said here today that the producers of Rob& Chyna( which include the titular Rob and Chyna among their ranks) do try to spice thoughts up. Scott Disick appears in the role played by Robs only friend in the entire world and his chauffeur, schlepping him around Los Angeles like a pasty white Morgan Freeman from Driving Miss Daisy. Theres a memorable vistum where Rob steps into Chynas home in full Eeyore mode, carrying flowers to apologize for texting bitches. Chyna isnt having it, grabs the flowers, grubs them in a consortium, then kicks Rob out of her mansion. This is the turning point of the suspect narration, as the rest of the escapade involves Chyna trying to get Rob to text her back, as she has apparently be pointed out that she called at him to leave her alone while pee-pee all over his romantic gesticulate. Im sure Rob Kardashian, AKA Calabasas Morrissey, actually took that well.

Finally, Kris Jenner, matriarch of the expansive Kardashian family and former nemesis of Blac Chyna, appears to counsel Chyna on how to deal with Rob. Jenner is shown to be so shrewd that I half expected her to have grown a beard, picked up a large twig, and shed on a pointy hat off-screen. Much has been made of how Blac Chyna is so cunning and took down the Kardashians by getting engaged to Rob. Thats a neat little underdog narrative, but if you think that Kris Jenner isnt cunning enough to use this to her advantage and will be the eventual winner of this dim-witted struggle, then you arent paying attention to the appearance. Thats fine, since it probably obligated you pass out from wearines, but the facts of the case remains that one of the last faces you see in this first chapter is Kris Jenner. The whole moronic initiative is hers and hers alone. Chyna can have a piece, as long as she pays her taxes to her feudal lord.

And then theres Rob. At last-place, they found a style to monetize his mopey look and wrinkled robes. Instead of a Shrek-like individual they hinder locked up in a cellar, he has his own picture, which merely furthers the aims of his family. In exchange, this boy who possibly has real clinical depression has to pretend to be a Tv virtuoso. By coincidence, E! has stumbled upon the saddest reveal on tv, so filled with existential hopelessnes that youd usurp it was drummed up by a government-funded columnist in some sodden Scandinavian country over a bottle of cheap scotch. If “youre watching” more than one of the following options escapades, youll possibly find yourself not leaving the house for years, just like Rob Kardashian.

Sovereigns William and Harry strategy effigy of their father, Diana


Effigy to be placed in Kensington Palace gardens, to celebrate 20 th commemoration of her death in a Paris car accident

Diana, Princess of Wales must therefore be celebrated with a bronze commissioned by her sons to label the 20 th anniversary of her fatality this year.

The Duke of Cambridge and Prince Harry said it was now appropriate to recognise her positive impact at home and abroad with the gravestone. It will be in a place she knew well, the public garden-varieties of her former home, Kensington Palace.

The royal friends suggested: It has been 20 times since our fathers death and the time is right to recognise her positive impact in the UK and of all the countries with a permanent bronze. Our baby stroked so many lives. We hope the statue will be contributing all individuals who visit Kensington Palace to reflect on her life and her gift.

William was 15 years old and Harry 12 when Diana was killed in a gondola disintegrate in Paris on 31 August 1997.

Prince Harry made a rare public admission earlier this month about his feelings following the accident, responding during a stay to a London bereavement centre that he detected very angry when his mother croaked. Harry revealed last summer during an interview that “hes not” “was talkin about a” his mothers death for the first 28 years of my life.

The 10 th commemoration of Dianas death was labelled by a concerted effort at Wembley stadium, on what would have been her 46 th birthday, and a service at the Guards Chapel near Buckingham Palace.

Dianas sister, Lady Sarah McCorquodale, will be a member of the six-strong committee have the responsibility commissioning and privately developing funds for the establishment of the bronze, alongside Julia Samuel, who is a godparent of Prince George and was a close friend to the princess.

It will be chaired by Jamie Lowther-Pinkerton, the royal brethren former principal private secretary. Its member states will advise on the choice of sculptor and will work with Historic Royal Palaces on the station.

A spokesperson for Kensington Palace replied make are now beginning soon but it was not possible to say when the effigy “wouldve been” unveiled, although it is hoped the opening ceremony would take place this year.

The Diana Award a charity established to promote the princes sentiment in the positive superpower of young people will commemorate their own lives throughout 2017 with a variety of phenomena, from the launch of an international give to the founding of their own nationals kindness daylight.

Russell Westbrook named NBA’s MVP after record-setting season


Russell Westbrook was voted the NBAs MVP on Monday night after preparing a record with 42 triple-doubles

Russell Westbrook was voted MVP on Monday evening after defining a record with 42 triple-doubles during a historic season for the moment patrol. He conducted the tournament with 31.6 objects and included 10.7 rebounds and 10.4 expedites per competition, assembling Oscar Robertson as the only musicians to average a triple-double for the season and violating the foyer of famers single-season register of 41 triple-doubles in 1961 -6 2.

I remember growing up merely being residence, playing the video games and nonsense with my pops, and my mommy standing here and my brother and just talking about maybe one day I could be the MVP. Obviously I was joking at the time, Westbrook supposed. But now to be standing here with this award next to me is an absolute blessing, human, and its an unbelievable fondnes, something that I can never imagine.

Westbrooks victory objective the first NBA Awards indicate, which included two winnings apiece for the Houston Rockets and Milwaukee Bucks. He accepted 69 first-place votes and 888 phases from a body of 100 media members and a love referendum to readily pulsated Houstons James Harden, who had 22 first-place referendums and 753 places. Kawhi Leonard was third with nine first-place referendums and 500 points.


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Westbrook succeeded Stephen Curry, who had won the past two MVP gifts. The quality patrol who plays with defiance on the court got strangled up during an acceptance addres in which he created some team-mates onto the stage with him. The Thunder croaked 33 -9 when he had a triple-double, going Westbrooks record run into the playoffs in their first season after forgetting Kevin Durant to the Golden State Warriors.

Oscar, people like him, Magic Johnson, those people, undoubtedly I wasnt able to see those guys play, but exactly to look back at biography and view the things that they did, its something that I looked up to as a kid, Westbrook added. I never belief I would be able to say that I violated Oscar Robertsons enter, and thats precisely a true-life blessing.

Earlier, Milwaukees Malcolm Brogdon became the first participate not picked during the first round to triumph NBA rookie of its first year in the common enlist age, pulsating out Philadelphias Dario Saric and Joel Embiid. Brogdon was the No36 overall selection out of Virginia. The common sketch period began in 1966.

I think its an example for guys that are told they are too short, they are not sporting enough, they are not real point pickets, they are not real shooting sentries, Brogdon supposed. I just think its its significant content for people to view, and it can be done. It just takes a lot. Team-mate Giannis Antetokounmpo won the most improved actor award.

Houston coach Mike DAntoni acquired his second coach-and-four of its first year awarding, and the Rockets Eric Gordon was sixth man of its first year after adjusting a record for most three-pointers off the bench in his first season as a reserve.

Obviously Im simply proud of the team and the acces they answered all time. Great organization, DAntoni answered of the Rockets 55 -win season. This is not an individual award. “Its a lot” of parties, a lot of hard work goes into it, and Im the recipient of some pretty good players.

In his first season coming off the bench, Gordon prepared a single-season preserve with 206 three-pointers by a stockpile. He averaged 16.2 points to help gasoline the Rockets run to the astounding No3 seed in the Western Conference and perimeter former NBA finals MVP Andre Iguodala of Golden State by 32 points.

Golden States Draymond Green won the defensive participate of its first year, terminating Leonards two-year range. He resulted the league in steals from his do-everything role with the NBA endorses. He had a franchise-record 10 embezzles in a February game at Memphis while entering the first triple-double in NBA history without scoring in doubled people, lending 11 backlashes and 10 assists.

The NBA formerly committed out its individual bestows at different spots throughout the postseason before swapping to the accolades demo this season and presenting them all at once in front of the tournaments top participates and wizards from the recreation world.

Two of the best instants came during segments that didnt involving the NBAs six individual accolades. Bill Russell was presented the first Lifetime Achievement award, welcomed on stagecoach by fellow vestibule of renown centres Kareem Abdul-Jabbar, David Robinson, Shaquille ONeal, Alonzo Mourning and Dikembe Mutombo. The 11 -time champion as a participate and the conferences first pitch-black coach-and-four firstly placed at them and joked that he would have knocked their butt, then told them: You have no idea how much respect I have for you guys.

Former Thunder assistant coach Monty Williams was given the SagerStrong Award for the forte he proved after his wife was killed in a vehicle disintegrate in Oklahoma City. He was given a colorful coat like the ones worn by Craig Sager, the longtime Turner Sports reporter who died of cancer this past season.

20 Signs Youre Doing Better Than You Think You Are


  1. Youpaid the bills this month, and maybe even had extra to spend on non-necessities. It doesn’t matter how much you belabored the checks as they went out, the point is thatthey did, and you figured it out regardless.
  2. You question yourself. You doubt your life. You feel miserable some days. This means you’re still open to growth. This means you can be objective and self-aware. The best people go home at the end of the day and think: “or… maybe there’s another way.”
  3. You have a job. Forhowever many hours, at whatever rate, you are earning money that helps you eat something, sleep on something, wear something every day.It’s not failure if it doesn’t look the way you thought it would you’re valuing your independence and taking responsibility for yourself.
  4. You have time to dosomething you enjoy. Even if “what you enjoy” is sitting on the couch and ordering dinner and watching Netflix.
  5. You are not worried about where your next meal is coming from. There’s food in the fridge or pantry, and you have enough to actually pick and choose what you want to eat.
  6. You can eat because you enjoy it. It’s not a matter of sheer survival.
  7. You have one or two truly close friends. People worry about the quantity but eventually tend to realize the number of people you can claim to be in your tribe has no bearing on how much you feelintimacy, acceptance, community, or joy. At the end of the day, all we really want are a few close people who know us (and love us) no matter what.
  8. You could afford a subway ride, cup of coffee, or the gas in your car this morning. The smallest conveniences (and oftentimes, necessities) are not variables for you.
  9. You’re not the same person you were a year ago. You’re learning, and evolving, andcan identify the ways in which you’ve changed for better and worse.
  10. You have the time and means to do things beyond the bare minimum. You’ve maybe been to a concert in the last few years, you buy books for yourself, you could take a day trip to a neighboring city if you wanted you don’t have to work all hours of the dayto survive.
  11. You have a selection of clothing at your disposal. You aren’t worried about having a hat or gloves in a blizzard, you have cool clothes for the summer and something to wear to a wedding. You not only can shield and decorate your body, but can do so appropriately for a variety of circumstances.
  12. You can sense whatisn’tright in your life.The first and most crucial step is simply being aware. Being able to communicate to yourself: “something is not right, even though I am not yet sure what would feel better.”
  13. If you could talk to your younger self, you would be able so say:“We did it, we made it out, we survived that terrible thing.”So often people carry their past traumasinto their present lives, andif you want any proof that we carry who we were in who we are, all you need to do is see how you respond to your inner child hearing,from the person they became.
  14. You have a space of your own. It doesn’t even have to be a home or apartment (but that’s great if it is). All you need is a room, a corner, a desk, where you can create or rest at your discretion; where you govern who gets to be part of your weird little world, and to what capacity. It’s one of the few controls we can actually exert.
  15. You’ve lostrelationships. More important than the fact that you’ve simply had them in the first place is that you or your former partner chose not to settle. You opened yourself to the possibility of something else being out there.
  16. You’re interested in something.Whether it’s now how to live a happier life, maintain better relationships, reading or movies or sex or society or the axis on which the world spins, something intrigues you to explore it.
  17. You know how to take care of yourself.You know how many hours of sleep you need to feel okay the next day, who to turn to when you’re heartbroken, what you have fun doing,what todo when you don’t feel well,etc.
  18. You’re working toward a goal.Even if you’re exhausted and it feels miles away, you have a dream for yourself, however vague and malleable.
  19. But you’re not uncompromisingly set on anything for your future. Some of the happiest and best adjusted people are the ones who can make any situation an ideal, who are too immersed in the moment to intricately planand decidedly commit to any one specific outcome.
  20. You’ve been through some crap. You can look at challenges you currently face and compare them to ones you thought you’d never get over. You can reassure yourself through your own experience. Life did not get easier, you got smarter.

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‘NCI’S recap: DiNozzo encounters several phony Tonys


Michael Weatherly as Special Agent Tony DiNozzo on ‘NCI’S Photo: Sonja Flemming/ CBS( 2016 CBS Broadcasting, Inc .)

Tuesday’s “Charade” episode of “NCIS” is the beginning of the end of Tony DiNozzo’s story because Michael Weatherly is leaving the show at the end of the season. The foundation for his departure is laid in this chapter as he interrogates who he is.

It all begins when DiNozzo and Deputy Vance are at a cocktail party and a Senator Bransfield has a creepy reaction to DiNozzo. When they get a minute alone, the senator announces DiNozzo a loathsome section of slime before handing over an envelope full of currency totaling $20,000.

The next morning, DiNozzo is baffling out what happened when Gibbs hastes in and tells the team that an NCIS agent was killed in a vehicle accident. When DiNozzo expects who, Gibbs answers, “You.”

The team honchoes to the crime stage, where they find a briefcase full of cash in the trunk of the dead man’s automobile. The phony Tony is certainly Scott Byers, who died from dampen patrol damage when his car was run off the road and into a pole.

Abby analyzes the colour transportation on the dead man’s automobile and determines the color of the other auto concerned is Arctic White. Now, they just need to find it.

Senator Bransfield and DiNozzo meet in the NCIS conference room, where the senator offers Tony another $20,000 to stop his secret. DiNozzo hands back the envelope Bransfield passed him at the party and explains that the three men extorting the senator is an imposter. Gibbs asks if they can access Bransfield’s phone, but the senator is loath because it will uncover why he is being blackmailed.

Undeterred, Abby hacks the senator’s email and determines photos of him kissing a blonde. It likewise turns out that Bransfield isn’t the only lawmaker being blackmailed. Senators Will Matheson and Shawn Kelly are also being extorted.

The NCIS team determines up a stinging with McGee playing one senator, while Gibbs plays another. When the two phony Tonys show up, they are arrested. It is about to change that the three men are performers who were hired by a woman off of an ad on Craigslist.

While being questioned, the phony Tonys tell DiNozzo his life was easy to memorize, because he is boring. He has the same occupation and the same accommodation for years. Nothing ever changes with him.

The real DiNozzo tells the guys to call their boss, but they explain they can’t. She ever calls them. But they do has demonstrated that they drop off the money they collect at a bus depot cupboard on Massachusetts Avenue.

Abby checks the station’s defence cameras, and when the status of women testifies her face, DiNozzo knows who she is. He dated her. He knew her as Leah Ramsey, but that wasn’t her real epithet. It is about to change she targeted him in order to better embezzle his identity.

DiNozzo has Abby over to his apartment to dust for fingerprints. It is slow leading until he remembers that “Leah” drank chardonnay and the bottle is still in the fridge. They pass her engraves and find her mug shot. “Leah” is actually Elizabeth Elliott, who was arrested twice in Florida for writing bad checks and embezzlement.

DiNozzo searches for Elliott and gets arrested for masquerading a federal policeman when he is stopped for rapidity. When McGee picks him up at the police station, DiNozzo mourns that he is losing his hem. He got swindled by a bimbo and he has Laurel and Hardy impersonating him.

Then, Bishop and McGee present Gibbs with their ideology of who killed Byers: Senator Shawn Kelly. They believe it was Kelly because he was being extorted over payoffs to a doctor to get Kelly out of military service that would have made him in harm’s behavior during Desert Storm.

Elliott corroborates their assumption and replies she will testify against Senator Kelly in return for the charges against her being put. Gibbs supposes no treat. He doesn’t think her legend sounds genuine and he is right.

It turns out that Senator Kelly’s automobile did extend Byers off the road, but he wasn’t driving it. The senator’s aide Lisa was behind the wheel.

It transpires that Lisa and Elliott used to work together at a mortgage corporation. Both girls lost their jobs during the course of its housing crisis. After Lisa went to work, as Kelly’s aide, she and Elliott invented the extortion scheme.

‘NCI’S airs Tuesdays on CBS .

Why Modern Dating Makes Me Want To Punch Myself In The Throat


As a 22-year-old single woman I’m pretty much living in the thickest part of the modern hookup culture perfecting the art of getting the right guy to buy you a drink at a bar, crafting the perfect response to a text to make you seem just interested enough, taking the proper five seconds to adequately judge a person and determine whether or not to swipe left or right on Tinder. That’s the world I live in now and I have to confess: I hate it with every fiber of my being.

Maybe it’s because I let insignificant events ruminate in my mind far past their welcome. Or maybe it’s because I react too sensitively to the people with whom I share the world. Or maybe the modern dating scene is just horrendously fucked up. It’s probably all three, but in the interest of, well, maintaining your interest, let’s just talk about that third observation.

While I was in a relationship, I heard people complain about the single life all of the time. Stories from my friends, articles on the Internet, anything popular on television, it’s everywhere. But it wasn’t until I began to experience it for myself that I truly understood what everyone was complaining about. Everything is so damn complicated. Nobody asks you out on a date; they just ask you to so after you do, you can spend the next three days that you’re supposed to be ignoring them wondering exactly what it meant. Did you see a movie? Go to dinner? Have sex in your car? Fly to Paris and get drunk under the Eiffel Tower? Be careful; you guys were just hanging out. I have a simple solution for those of you who struggle with these haunting questions: ask the other person. Oh wait, you can’t. Hahaha. And heres why.

We live in a world where people are afraid to feel anything genuine, or at the very least, are afraid to show it. When someone is angry with you, theres no phone call asking to talk about it. Instead you get a passive aggressive response to a text message or a suspiciously relevant subtweet, quietly calling you out in 140 characters or less. If you like someone, you don’t tell them how you feel; rather you act interested enough for them to pick up on it, but not enough to freak them out. Don’t like it? Too bad. It’s all a big game and if you don’t play by the rules then you lose, and if you lose you end up alone and drowning in a pile of your own insecurity, wondering what you did wrong.

Dont ask to hangout two nights in a row. If you texted first last time, you have to wait for him to text you first this time. Dont double text. You cant assume anything is more than casual, even if youre having sex. But you cant talk about it either. If youre wondering where a relationship is going and you decide to bring it up, every word you say has to be carefully chosen so as to seem okay with any response youre given, even if youre not. Everything is done through texting. Its weird to call someone in the modern world just to have a conversation or try to make plans, so were forced to wait anxiously for a response that might not ever come.

Everything is calculated to appear thoughtless, and it is one of the most exhausting games Ive ever had to play. I could earn my masters degree with the amount of time and energyit takes to determine whether or not my casual hookup actually has feelings for me.

If I like someone, I want to hang out with him. Its as simple as that. Or at least it should be. But in the dating culture to which we are enslaved, it has to be more convoluted than that. If I talk to him too much, Im needy. If Im always free when he asks me to hangout, Im clingy and have no life of my own. If he takes three hours to respond to my text, and my phone is in my hand whenI get his reply, I have to wait to answer so I dont seem too eager. And I am constantly wondering why I play these stupid games.

Why cant I call someone because I like talking to him? Why does showing I care make me needy? If I act angry when a guy blows me off, Im just a crazy bitch, so my only other option is to complain to my friends and wade in anxiety until he finally texts me back. And let me tell you something; I dont want to be that girl. I dont want anyone to have that power over me. No one should have that kind of power over anyone. I am so tired of living in a world where apathy is more effective in getting someones attention than honesty. Im tired of the manipulative games that men and women play with one another in an effort to maintain control in a relationship that were not allowed to define.

So heres my idea: lets all stop being little fucks. Respect other people enough to tell them the truth. If someone makes you happy, tell them. If someone inspires you, tell them. If youre not interested in someone, please just fucking tell them. Dont ignore people until they disappear. Its time we grow up and stop leaving people hanging with unanswered texts and cryptic social media posts. Everyone is human and were all just trying to understand one another in this messy dating world, so stop treating a relationship of any kind like its a challenge to complete. Be honest with other people about how you feel, and dont get so lost in playing the game that you forget to extend that same courtesy to yourself.

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